For the first time in my life, I'm in California. In Los Angeles, to be precise, though there's little precision to be found in the area. This visit has been a long time coming, and to be honest, there's a bittersweet aspect to it all. It's like going backstage at your favorite theater or meeting an esteemed celebrity - a little bit of mystery has disappeared from life, and even if the experience is better than you'd imagined, it's never exactly what you pictured. And while experience and knowledge is gaIned, that old fantasy disintegrates and is difficult to recall.